Friday, December 9, 2011 . 3:02 AM

Glad =)

Quite glad in my current phase of life, that I am working towards understanding self and the things in life I have not been able to see clearly before. Not to say I have reached and grown to a great extend of my potential in my understanding towards life - I think I have barely even started in my growth as a person and in my understanding yet - but it is a tangible amount of growth so far. So so important for myself to remain grateful and thankful for the things in life so that growth wouldnt be retarded and also I feel I am much happier/positive when I am being thankful. I see friends and other people tose that emo so much, complain alot, dwelling in their negativity.. for what?? I ask myself this when I am reacting negatively, and realize that I am making myself feeling worse. After which then I start to focus on the positive side of things, that I am not as unfortunate as I think I am, I am still alive, I have friends to talk to, I have my family members to turn to, to live with. These are thoughts and things that makes me glad.

Recently, I met up with an aj friend whom I have not met in quite awhile.. Say around.. 8months or more? I do really quite like him.. Thinking about him every now and then.. =/... and I was happy to see him again after so long! A really kind person I feel he is, does things for his family and friends, quite a giving person. That is what I need to learn as well. Though I feel i have failed very badly in it and I am still not very good at it. I want to believe in myself and work towards becoming a better person.

There is another friend, an ex-schoolmate I had in lasalle. Quite on good relations with her and when she returned to Indonesia after she witdrew from college, I would every now and then tell my other friend how good it is if she is still in Singapore. Then suddenly, after sooo longgg without communicating with her, she suddenly greeted me on facebook. I was really happy. We chatted and she talked about certain negative aspects of people she has been going through, tells me how she feels so many people do not respect or try to earn to understand others. Then she told me that I am one of her friends that can respect people. I felt something warm in me. That she still appreciates me as much as I do for her as a friend.

Just yesterday, I visited a friend for the 1st time. Usually he would tell and share about many spirituakly related stuffs like buddhism teachings, tarot card readings, inner growth as a person etc etc. Innitially I thought his home would be quite normal looking as he said like it is still in th works, along those lines.. But when I stepped inside... I was like.. wah lau... So kewlllll... Like a witchcraft shop!!! like magical and stuffs kinda feeling, hahax.. I told him about the witchcraft thingy and he rolled his eyes hahx. Quite a unique individual, very knowledgable.. and his house reflected of it as well - the many many many stacks of books equivalent to the amount of a small library - quite impressive! He is quite a daunting and bitchy creature, but somehow there is a good nature in him that I feel I can learn from, something kind amidst the bitchy outer personality.

Really hope to become a person that enjoys people's company and vice versa. Without obligations but desire to share and grow.