Wednesday, November 30, 2011 . 7:24 AM

Worries -> Prioritize

Feeling spiritually dry lately. I feel my mind is a blank right now, like I don't know what to think or what to do. It is a strange feeling.. Of feeling just blank. Maybe I am thinking too much about what could be, about how I can make better use of my time or how I can plan my future or how I can prepare the present for a good friend's coming 21st birthday or.. or... etc etc.. It is like blank = white. It is like emptiness but then, the colour white is made up of several colours mixed together like the colour wheel when it is spun.

Think too much, do to much = attaining nothingness. Reach and spiral back to square one. I'm trying to sort my thoughts here as I know and I just know something isn't right, this uncomfortable lingering feeling. I am learning step by step and I know I shouldn't leave any such uncomfortable feelings lying around in me, in my mind... I should get hold of it... Try to understand and then know what's going on.

I think I am over-worrying. Worrying is not a bad thing I believe. But I have to reorganize how these feelings function, how to sort and balance, prioritize things better. Hmmmm yep yep Prioritize is the word :). I have learnt to slowly understand things around me and my life, and now I think it is a phase to work of how to deal with the issues in my life, things to work on. Life my art, the development of it. Friends, building friendship, friends that I feel are really worth knowing and keeping. There is a need also for my financial planning.

Life is full of joy and also full of disappointments. This is the fact, the reality I have to come into. After accepting this fact that life isn't meant to be perfect, then I can explore and learn to extend my wings slowly to help myself walk.. then run.. after which then I will learn to fly. Flying however... is a whole other nature a whole other monster to control. The risks involved are great. So before I start to move onto the greater things and responsibilities in life, I have to learn to manage and understand simpler things. I can do it...