Sunday, October 2, 2011 . 10:28 AM

That Guy...

Listening to Kelly Clarkson's song, Mr Know-it-all. Nice song! Though hardly any relevance to what I am feeling now.. So empty in my heart. When I think of this guy, I like him alot, alot.. alot. Sometimes I even think if liking him, the fact that I like him makes sense at all, if I really do like him. But when I think of him, I feel sad, I feel useless, I feel silly... haha.. really...

I can't make him like me the way I like him. He is just there, has his own life, I am here trying to make my life better. Time passes so slow, and it does get excruciating... He is attractive to me coz I feel and believe he knows what he really wants.. for his life, his love, his goals. Just talking to him motivates me to work hard for my own life. And I feel he is a good person, a good listener. But it will not cross this line, will never. Pretty much certain about it.

When I think about him, it just makes me think.. I'm not good enough... not good enough... But I need to know and understand I will find another than settle for the impossible... I feel like crashing my head against the wall.. wanna break down. It's all silly! fk all these emotions. Ron quit feeling sorry for yourself... Give yourself time to get better.. as a person and in life and future career. No point rushing... rushing that doesn't build up any foundation at all.. Fk all these impatience...

This loneliness will not go away now but It will not last for a lifetime... please believe this!