Wednesday, October 19, 2011 . 10:53 AM

Growth and Simplicity

I'm listening to Rihanna's new song, We Found Love. Ok not exactly an emo song or some heartfelt song that i would usually take my time to listen but recently I feel that I need a light-hearted and positive song like this. To fk all the negativity. To fk all the tiredness. To fk all the frustrations. To fk all the sadness.. I don't want to laugh it off... don't want to laugh all the negativity off.. but I want to learn to understand. I want to grow to learn to deal with it, use all those energy as my tool to propell myself forward in life.

I have been quite emo lately. How I wish there's someone (yahhh I know it is cliche) here by my side to share our life with each other and to experience life together. To care for and love one another unconditionally. We are created to love. To understand what's true in our hearts. I feel the guy I like, is impossible for any further development at all. And it is very hard somehow for me to crush on and take interest in a person. I think it is because overtime when I learn to somehow love myself better, I have learnt slowly about the things I want and more clear about them.

Really I wonder when I will find that someone I like (so tough..) and with mutual feelings (even fkingly tougher). But enough of this emo shit! lolx... Had dinner with 2 good friends today, simple meet up and dinner and walk around. Felt v happy somehow. To do simple things with the people I love. The people I appreciate. I am starting to understand more things, I can feel the positive difference. Just sometimes I lose the patience and be complacent.

I need the patience and determination to peservere on.. Ron u can do it!