Friday, September 16, 2011 . 5:01 AM

Recollections of Past and Now

Woooo... I'm listening to Elliot Yamin's song, You Say, as I am typing this blog post... Voice with so much warmth.. and he is kinda cute too.... ^^ lol... I guess I prefer guys that are simple, joyful and yet rich deep within their hearts. I've been feeling a little love-needy this week... don't know why.. I'm disappointed over myself and some situations but I am thankful and happy as well of life and for everyday... Still trying to grow into a person that understands life better daily, for myself, for the people around me, for a better life, better future and also hopefully for my other half in the future.

Over the course of the recent months, conversed with different people, and through bits and pieces of my experiences in life this while, I feel a certain tangible change in myself. More understanding of myself, life and people. Although there are always ups and downs daily but I accept them, I try to.. and then learn from them. Doesnt matter if I'm pissed fking pissed in those ngative moments, moments that I feel frustrated... But it's important to take a step back, behind all those anger behind all those negative thoughts and observe. To just breathe, and then understanding comes, maybe not immediately, but it does prepare the mind to take in and understand those experiences better to make the best out of them.

These days I have been drawing more and more, back to my art again. I know... I just know somehow that I am capable of being on top with all those successful artists. If I start working my ass off... Using not just my mind, but understanding from my heart of life, translating into my art and art making... I yearn to discovery more about life through art... All the hurts... pains... darkness... joy... beauty... tranquility... to form a deeper understanding and then use it to inspire people, their lives and in turn not just helping myself to understand life and self better, but also for them as well. I need to believe that I can be a full-time artist someday!

Recently I have also started working out with some dumbbells I've bought. Really want to put on some weight! Hope to not just improve on the inner aspects but also for the outer. Both goes hand in hand.

Life will get better.. it is getting there, and it will be better someday!