Thursday, April 7, 2011 . 12:28 PM

Get On With It!

Lalalala I'm back to blogging again. I've been kinda slack this days.. hmm kinda do not really like the word slack. Lets just say I have been more.. free.. more.. time on my hands these days. I have been searching for jobs, maybe not hard enough hence getting ones that I don't want to take up.

So I am typing.. blogging this late now.. To think back these few days.. the passing few days. My mood has been a little erratic, slightly.. increasingly uncontrollable, my temper is becoming shorter and shorter. Somehow I think this has to do with some 'lazing' and 'idling' around. unhealthy for the mind and soul. I really have to make good.. no make great use of my time, be fruitful in my life. I realize that I tend to succumb now and then to my laziness and fears in my life.

My laziness to not being doing the best I know I can. This laziness and hardworking thing keeps fluctuating in my life. One moment I am lazy, when I get tired/sick of it.. Hardworking mindset comes in. Not long after it dries out and laziness and comfort sets in again. This has to stop.. this inconsistency. I have to make do of something in this life.. this chance to life.. this chance of existence even at the expense of suffering. But where is long-suffering without happiness during and after it all? All talk and no action isn't much good for myself..

Ron get on with it.. Be patient but not lazy.. be wise.. alert.. be vigilant. Have an open heart.. willing to learn. Be truely who you are.. who I am created to become, how fruitful hopefully I can render my existence to be. Something positively tangible in my life and also to the people around me as well. No time bombs but I freaking want to be of good cheer to people. I have not done my best.. but hopefully hopefully as I try and try harder... That day would come where I could be someone useful.. someone that could love freely.