Wednesday, April 13, 2011 . 1:35 PM

Disappointments

Being feeling down.. heavy in my heart.. Being slowly leadint to utter disappointment in myself and people, friends. The innate nature of the human wants to point, wants to pin point the faults. But an open heart understands how useless and at times destructive of the nature of blame and finger pointing can be when disappointment arises. The mind finds it hard to comply with the heart's understanding..

I'm so tired.. have been so pissed off at everything. Talked to Kor about it, he shared and emphasized about the word believe. Yes believe though how vague to most it can be at times we face things that distracts us from the way. It is truely a strong force to be reckoned with, when done with understanding, endurance and patience. How Jesus from the bible chose the cross, chose to obey to suffer the pains, to see the ugliness of human nature to be utterly beaten down. Though he was disappointed.. That heart and passion for life and for love was greatly evident. Put our hopes in the things we can't see.. is risky.. very risky.. but it is a strong element that is hard to master.

To embrace live with open heart even in setbacks, that keeping an open heart is difficult. But that is the only way we can continue to keep our soul alive and growing. At the end of the day, how much can the heart take till it finally echoes the shriek of utter hopelessness or the strong final call of triumph?