Wednesday, February 16, 2011 . 10:01 AM

BF

It has been like what? 1 plus months.. since 24dec 2010 since I opened up and accepting myself as a bi, more like 80% aj... During this period of opening up and interacting with many ajs, it has opened my heart to who and what I really am. My desires and longing or love.. that has been kept under wraps has made me slowly to feel again, as a living breathing human being. Sounds cliche.. whateva! hahax..

So what about BF u guys must be thinking..? Hmmm... my heart has been frozen for like 8yrs or so in self-denial of who I really am on the inside. All that my heart has desired over that pass years have been kept underwraps, in denial putting my heart on death sentence waiting to be executed... On the 1st month of opening up last Dec, my heart just spilled out... everything.. pounched on anything I can get.. tried to learn the ropes but rushed myself to fast in knowing people, the aj thingys and abused 'fun'.

Now this period, I'm trying to pick myself up again. Really, I am very thankful of what God has done so far for me in my life.. I love U Lord, and for the people U have placed around me in my life. WWhile I'm trying to stay sane, hopes of having a bf to share the love with, share my life with arises..

The guy... my other half.. soulmate... the one that completes me.. just where are you hiding now? Have u taken care.. good care of yourself?? I don't expect much in terms of outlooks... decent looking guy, slim is fine with me.. chemistry should be existent... appreciate the arts and wanna experience the world with him... through sadness.. hurts, happiness... love.. simple love... where are you?? dear boy.. I want to share my life with you.. and know all about you... I pray to God you'll cross my path one day and I wouldn't miss that instant of chance to get hold of you! =))